20,000 Down the Drain

It boggles the mind how quick it was to lose 20,000. On top of a couple of thousand in the recent past and another couple thousand in the near future, I really feel like crying. It either makes you want to stop spending ever again or it makes you want to spend even more, because in comparison, your efforts to save money is just a drop in the bucket, so your efforts seem to be a complete and utter waste of your time, hard work, and sacrifice. Why even try? This just makes me want to cry. Maybe God has a plan for this. I hope so. I hope and pray,